This feels kind of like the last straw in what has been a stressful April. Much of this stress was brought upon by myself, but it has still been stressful nonetheless. I have avoided blogging about it, probably because I don't want to think about it any more than I have to. There have been two BIG projects staring me in the face, but that is almost behind me. This coming Saturday, I have to take a BIG certification test for work that covers anything you could ever want to know about diabetes. Wouldn't be such a big deal, but it cost $350 which means I do not want to fail. But I also do not want to study, because it feels like it covers such a wide spectrum of information that I could never know it all, so I feel like giving up before I even start. So that is stressing me out. Then, on top of that, I was foolish enough to agree to organizing the food for our annual ladies' tea at church. The good news there is that it was this last Saturday, so at least it is behind me. When I was asked to do this job, I totally forgot about the test, then when I realized the two were only a week apart, I felt it was too late to back out, because I had already committed to it. It all worked out beautifully (I had LOTS of great help!), but it was still stressful to me organizing and planning it all. I actually like doing that kind of thing, but the two big projects combined have been overwhelming. So overwhelming that I had these mini-anxiety attacks where I was short of breath and had chest pain from time to time. That has never happened to me before, so it was a little freaky.
But at least there is a light at the end of the tunnel. After the test this Saturday, I plan to go get a pedicure. What I really need is a massage AND a manicure AND a pedicure. But I will try to use some self-control. Maybe I should buy all three pairs of shoes after all!
Thanks for listening to my rant!